i started an ana notebook yesterday, wit many thinspo pics too!
anyways, here are some of the things i wrote that really make me want to fast for a year.
i know they sound kinda over the top, but thats what i need to not give up.
"dont eat. DONT! You might just be saying: "oh, 200 calories wont hurt!"
YES THEY DO. stay away from the kitchen or youll regret it. YOU WILL REGRET IT. TRUST ME. DONT EAT.
if i wouldnt have eaten like i should have in these past 2 weeks i would already weigh 42 kilos. SO JUST DONT EAT.
HE will then maybe notice me. A SKELETON. all i have to do is not eat. WOULD YOU RATHER HAVE FOOD OR HIM?
i thought so. so sont eat FATTIE!!!"
"Stay away from food! its the enemy. ana is the friend. she can make me beautiful. she will make me thin. think thin <3 for him <3"
"I dont need food. im not eating food. it makes me fat. if i eat it ill regret it"
"if not for you, do it for him <3"
"NO. trust me, youll regret it if you eat. just stay away from it. Think Thin"
"Stop and think. WHY DO YOU WANT TO EAT?!?!?! im no hunggry. im not dyeing for food. im just bored. eating is just a habit!"
"dont eaet. its not worth it. find somehing else to do. you eat because youre bored. DONT EAT"
"are you going to let a cookie get inbetween you and thin???"
"dont let go, dont fail ana. she is my friend. she can help me be thin"
"MY BODY. MY RULES. MY WAY"
"im the boss, not the food. dont let it give you orders."
"HE <3 is going to see me in a bathing siut all summer"
"why does she keep on cooking me food? [my mom] doesnt matter. i wont eat it. trus me. youll regret it if you do. its going to go to waste even if you do eat it. its gonna turn into poop!"
and why does everyone tell me i "look healthy"????
FUCK YOU!!! youre just sayinig im FAT!!!!